Damn!

Didn't want to get emotional on the conversation I'd been looking forward to all day. Inevitably it happened. It's a nightmare because I don't want to make things harder or more difficult for anyone else. Don't want to put any pressure on anyone. Don't want my emotions to be a burden to anyone else. But want things to be said, hope for things to be said. Wanting and hoping that certain things might happen.

Damn! Damn! Damn!

I'm not gonna stop hoping. I'm not gonna give up on my positivity. It's not going to stop me from doing things here. I'd just like to be able to share them in more than words and thoughts.