It's been ages again...I keep going to write something and then think that there is nothing really to write about. Work is annoying, life is fairly normal. Actually, that's a bit of an understatement...last week work was utter shite. The kids are brilliant, just getting really fed up with everything else.
At the weekend I went to Banos again. It wasn't my plan. Ages ago I had decided I would go to Vilcabamba on my long weekend in October. I was single when I decided this and obviously once there is another person in the picture compromises are made. Until last Wednesday night I had thought I was going to Cotopaxi - until I found out the hostel we wanted to stay in was fully booked. So then plans changed again, leaving me wishing that I was heading off on my own as originally planned. Last Thursday I booked a hostel in Banos and sorted out a lift there (very easy, my friend Andy was driving!)
Friday arrived and we got to Banos late afternoon. It felt good to have actually got away.
On Friday night I bumped into a couple of good friends, Sasha and Marcelo. It was great to see both - especially when Marcelo started telling Sasha about plans he had. The guy and I ended up back at Marcelo's house on his very own mountain! He started building it 6 weeks ago and it's amazing what he has accomplished.
We left Marcelo's house as the sun was rising, giggling a lot and I suddenly realised why I had ended up in Banos...the guy needed to meet Marcelo and Marcelo needed to meet Sasha.
Quite a lot of time was spent with Marcelo over the weekend, which was a lot of fun. Twas also nice coz I can hug and kiss Marcelo like my friends back home. The guy and Marcelo got on brilliantly and both got very excited about building stuff and bits of wood (kinda reminded me of Waller!).
The guy has been pretty down recently coz quite a few good friends are leaving Ecuador...it's hard for me too, the great circle of friends I have outside of school seems to be diminishing. However it's also hard because I don't want the guy to stay just because I'm here. I don't want that responsibility.
I've realised in the past week or so that I'm restless again...I'm wondering about the next move after here and I'm fairly sure it's a move I want to take alone.
I freaked myself out a bit on Sunday night because I was on the verge of a panic attack - I know why, but won't go into it here. Let's just say I was not vocalising things in my head. One little spark became quite a flame of doubts and worries in my head. It's been a very long time since that has happened to me.
On happier and brighter notes, my middle sis and family are here on Saturday - can't wait to hug the small boy! Also I've started organising my trip to Colombia at Christmas.
On a not so bright note, it's autumn and I miss home. I know it's probably raining (but then again it's doing that here now) but I wish I could see my friends and the trees changing colour.
